Dealing with my Abrasive Nature

Ever since I wrote the blog "Role-players like to bitch" I've more and more caught myself being a total bitch to people and stopped myself, I've put up with ideas for role-play that totally turn me into abrasive mode, and accumulated a lot of people on my friends list. However, this has not been a totally won battle. I've still been a total bitch to people on occasion.... as some of my role-play blogs have shown. As annoyed at I am at myself for doing this, this does however make for some really fun blogs to post.... so here's another one. It should be a short enough blog! So as I said I've accumulated people on my friendslist, the problem is I don't remember who most of them are. One person pmed me in particular , probably to eventually role-play, but made a comment on my display image. My display image was of one girl grabbing, it seems by surprise, another girl's chest. It's cute, it's sexual, and it's not gross like a lot of sexual anime thing where the girl's boobs are so big you wonder how they stand. The problem was he called it "Lolicon." I looked it up, yes Lolicon is the Japanese form of pedophelia porn. Although the girls in the picture probably weren't meant to be grandmothers, at he same time they weren't meant to be children. So, I told him it wasn't lolicon, showed him the definition, and he continued to argue against it. I made it clear that I didn't want to talk about it anymore and he eventually blocked me. Regardless, here's the conversation.
Conversation start:

HasTroubleWithReading: Cute pic.

supercompoundrper: Thank you.

supercompoundrper: I like it.

HasTroubleWithReading: Definitely very cute. I do so adore lolicon from time to time.

supercompoundrper: lolicon?

HasTroubleWithReading: Never mind, lol.

HasTroubleWithReading: So what are you up to?

supercompoundrper: Gross.

supercompoundrper: I looked it up. I don't know that I'd call it lolicon

HasTroubleWithReading: If you say so.

supercompoundrper: Other than being grossed out by your pedophelia tendencies, doing math homework and role-playing.

supercompoundrper: How about you?

HasTroubleWithReading: Lolicon ain't pedophelia. I would NEVER go for underage girls that arereal or realistic. Cartoons are different.

supercompoundrper: Um.

supercompoundrper: I just looked up lolicon

HasTroubleWithReading: Yes, I know what it is. It's a type of hentai.

supercompoundrper: In Japan, the term describes an attraction to underage girls (whether prepubescent, pubescent, or post-pubescent)[2][3] or an individual with such an attraction.[4][5] It is also commonly used when referring to lolicon manga or lolicon anime, a genre of manga and anime wherein childlike female characters are often depicted in an erotic manner, in an art style reminiscent of the shōjo manga (girls' comics) style. Outside Japan, "lolicon" is in less common usage and usually refers to the genre.

HasTroubleWithReading: Childlike, not actual children. Children don't look like that. Kids are notsexually attractive. Lolicon is.

supercompoundrper: It says right there

supercompoundrper: The term describes an attraction to underage girls

supercompoundrper: Reading is hard

supercompoundrper: You've left me unconvinced, this conversation about what a definition says it is and you claiming what it is against the definition is annoying.

supercompoundrper: What do you want?

supercompoundrper: -IS done talking about lolicon-

supercompoundrper: -will ignore lolicon comments-

HasTroubleWithReading: *pulls out a 9mm beretta, loads it, then cocks it and puts the barrel toyour head.* Be nice. Please.

HasTroubleWithReading: And I am not Japanese.

supercompoundrper: -Will ignore lolicon comments- What do you want?

HasTroubleWithReading: *fires an ignore bullet at your pedo-obsessive, one-sided self, and sighs asyou die into Ignore land.* What a shame. You were almost above an insect.

:Conversation End

I know I was being... super abrasive. I blame the fact that school is overwhelmingly hard right now and I'm not taking a single class I find interesting or relevant to my field. Putting that side though, upon further investigation I realized that I had been role-playing with this guy! He wasn't very good though.... his posts were weird and so was his character... and not in a good way. Regardless, there are many things to make fun of here! For instance, my first thought after this conversation was "Man I dodged a bullet here..." I didn't even realize the pun at first. It was so funny that I wanted to pm him on another screen name to be like "LISTEN TO THIS IT'S SO FUNNY," but I decided my little insect wings couldn't take me there. Another thing is, a cartoon is a representation of things in the real world... So him hiding behind the fact that it was a cartoon doesn't stop it from being a representation of pedophilia. One last funny thing is the thought that I was supposed to know the metaphorical significance of holding a 9mm beretta (Oh man he likes guns enough to name the particular gun he's using! His dick must be huge! LAWL) to my head was supposed to represent. Either way, his rp was bad enough that I don't really care that it ended at all. If I were really honest with myself though, I'd tell you all how annoyed I am at myself for not living up to the moral standards I so preach. Oh well? Hopefully I'll do better next time. Y'all forgive me?