Okay... role-playing venting session.

Part of it is, spring break started and I'm taking the liberty of not doing anything. What this does it makes me not enjoy my time quite as much when all I've been doing is sitting around enjoying my time... time starts to mold into one useless unproductive moment and I start feeling lonely. Although boredom is not a word I'd use, since I did use lonely it's what I do. So I want to role-play. This gets rid of my loneliness and exports creativity from my eager wiggly creativeness needed in the pit of my stomach. However I haven't been able to get role-play lately... I'm probably just a bitch... however once upon a time I had the role-play of my dreams. It was the most fun thing on the planet and the person has basically started ignoring my every pm. She apparently got into a depression because of financial problems and basically stopped having the emotions to role-play. Eventually though... seeing her on made me very depressed, ya know why? Because BEFORE when I'd see her on I'd jump up in my seat almost. I didn't have romantic feelings for her or anything, but god seeing her online I could only contain myself from pming her 10 seconds after I or her got on before jumping into her pm and asking her to role-play. I would get distracted from school cause all I could think about were story ideas. It was on my mind constantly. I could redescribe for you our entire role-play.... Then it happened. I only complimented her, we never fought... but then obviously for some reason she was done for me, whether it was her explanation or my over enthusiasm (or a whole range of other ideas frankly.) Regardless, my lack of role-play, especially in light of my extremely fun role-play being thrown out the window, is leaving me lonelier for role-play than I realized. It's quite sad :(